Who Am I?

Hey! I’m Shaq Diesel!

IDENTIFYING WORDS INCLUDE: Black. Fat. Independent. Analytical. Lesbian. Stud. Confident. Pisces. Graphic Designer. Creative. Curious. Artist. Writer. Evolving.

God, isn’t that first bit extra pretentious?! Just read on, it gets worse!

ToddlerShaquea-OptimizeSTARTED FROM THE BOTTOM … I was born to a 13 year old mother and a 15 year old dad. My mother eventually got on drugs. My father gradually faded into the background. I grew up latch key. I grew up poor. I never really had access to proper nutrition and healthcare. I’m a first generation college student. I always dreamed of getting out of the hood. I used to live in the projects. I am a survivor of rape and sexual molestation. I wondered whether or not I’d make anything of my life. I have a complicated relationship with my family members. Most of my family is exactly where they were when I was born. I nervously “came out” as a lesbian to my family. I grew up angry and pissed off.

Grown_Shaquea-OptimizeNOW I’M HERE… Despite my parents young age, I managed to grow up pretty sane. I watched my mother get off crack … at least for a time. She’s a work in progress. I now talk to my father. I have found forgiveness in my heart for my parents and love them dearly, though me and Ma Dukes are complicated. While I’m far from rich, I am part of the American middle-class … I just bought my first house! I am now learning to eat healthy and going to the doctor because I have benefits. I went on to graduate college with a Bachelors of Fine Arts degree in Graphic Design and started a career in corporate America. Today, I only visit the hood and talk about the projects. The sexual assaults of my past no longer haunt me and I am becoming more comfortable discussing it. I’ve managed to accomplish most of my dreams, and now have the very fortunate dilemma of creating and pursuing new dreams. I still have a complicated relationship with the people in my family, but I love them and try my best to accept our differences. I am finally able to offer any advice or help to anyone in my family that’s willing to listen. (So far I have few takers, but I’m hopeful.) I am a fully out lesbian, both personally and professionally. I love, accept and embrace myself and make no apologies for who I am. I have been lucky in that most of my family have nothing to say about it. Most importantly, I wouldn’t lose an ounce of sleep if they did. I am no longer angry and pissed off. In fact, I am quite happy! Well, sometimes. Shit, I got a mortgage.

So yeah, I’m sharing my voice.

Welcome to ShaqWorld. I hope you find it interesting.

PS: I like to think of myself as a fat ass superhero.

Okay, so now that you’ve read all of my damn business, do you still want to talk? Well, online is the best way. Find me on social media or send me a message!

Shaq World

7 thoughts on “Who Am I?

  1. Hey Hun! I am glad I got know a bit more about you through reading this, and learn just a few things | never knew but appreciate to have found out…

    I look forward to peepin in and getting updates! Very inspirational!

  2. She’s a very talented designer. And some day, maybe, she will entertain us with her special Shaquea’s-take-on-life wit on stage as a standup comedian…yes, she’s THAT good!

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